The Trauma of Betrayal (Reposted from FB as it seems to have disappeared!)
I want to preface this by saying that this post will be about
my experiences as a woman who has gone through betrayal, but I know that the
men who go through this experience feel it equally as deeply; and oftentimes
have even less support in healing from the trauma aspect. This post is for
anyone who has experienced this kind of pain and trauma resulting from infidelity.
The second thing I want to say is that this...
Monday, 21 October 2019
Thursday, 17 January 2019
Infidelity – The Chaos and The Confidence – Part 2
A double life.
Secrets, shame, hidden
feelings, self-loathing, and guilt.
Strength, smiles,
openness, bravery, courage, and love.
This was me. Over the past decade, I have lived with a
splitting within my mind: a damaged processor, a flaky connection, and a screen
that turns on and off – illuminating selective aspects of my life – depending
on the situation, day, or even hour.
For a long time, I didn’t know what was wrong with me or why
I couldn’t maintain a stable mindset, a normal...
Tuesday, 8 January 2019
Between - The Things Don't Disappear
The things don’t disappear.
Today I had the house to myself. The kids returned to school yesterday, and Shaun was at work. Originally I had an appointment this morning; but even that was cancelled due to the early morning weather. It’s been a while since I’ve simply sat with nobody around and nothing pressing on my mind. No urgent matters to attend to… and though my house could probably using a good cleaning, it wasn’t on my list of priorities for the day.
It was strange though.
Throughout...
Tuesday, 1 January 2019
New Year Same Journey
When I woke up this morning, I didn’t see today as the last day of 2018. I wasn’t ending a chapter of my life, to begin a new sentence tomorrow or a fresh start with a resolution that I would have no intention of keeping. I didn’t see it as an ending this morning as I rolled out of bed and got ready to go to the grocery store – to which I would face a beginning tomorrow morning where I would wake up fresh faced and ready to tackle a new year.
This morning I did however glance in the mirror at...
Saturday, 15 December 2018
Infidelity - The Damage - Part 1
‘Stop blaming me and get over it.’
‘You made the choices you made.’
‘I am not responsible for the way
that you feel.’
‘There is no correlation between
what you experienced in the past, and the way that you are now.’
Four years ago I began writing
this blog as an outlet… a way to express the nature of the battle that I was
facing in my head. A battle with mental illness and depression, suicide
attempts and instability, anxiety and overall confusion… at least that’s what I
shared with the world.
But...
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