For the past several weeks, it’s been there. Lurking below
the surface, hiding behind the pills and the effort and the struggle to find a
new routine – one that would work for me.
Every day I have faced the same fight – the same urge to let
it go and take over filling me as I try to remind myself of the reasons why I
can’t do that. The reasons why I have to stay in control and be obedient and
keep putting in the effort.
Insomnia.
I’m not tired.
Emotionally I’m completely drained...
Thursday, 23 February 2017
Tuesday, 7 February 2017
Amid the Quiet and the Darkness
I should be asleep right now. Eyes closed, mouth open,
snoring softly and dreaming deeply. I should wake up in the morning rested and
energized, ready to face another day, fight another battle, and smile another
smile. I should be able to close my eyes without my mind racing a million miles
a minute – ideas and sparks of restless energy plaguing me as a tiredness
sweeps into my brain, just out of my grasp.
As is typical, I laid down to rest tonight – electronics
shut off, calming thoughts,...
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