You Call Yourself a Christian - So Where's God in All This?

This post is a little different than what I usually write about, usually preferring to keep the religious aspect of my posts to a minimum for my own comfort. However, this is one I've been thinking about for a while and I felt it was important as it was a step in my own personal journey.  God. Religion. Faith. If you pray hard enough and keep believing - God will heal you. I've heard it thousands of times, I've seen the people who have been healed, and I've seen the people who haven't. I've...

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A Future Worth Living For

Today (September 22) marks my birthday and for the first time in my adult life, I'm actually excited about what this year will bring me. For the first time in my adult life, I feel like I have a quality of life that is making the future worth living. I don't want to make generalisations or assumptions about others who suffer with mental illness - either diagnosed or not yet diagnosed - but I know for me, the future has never felt exciting. I think for me, it began as a teenager... around the time...

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If You're Happy And You Know It... You Could Be Manic

Me: Talking about the great day I had. Other Person: "Are you all right?" Me: Yeah, why? Other Person: "Nothing... you just seem a little... happy..." I had a good day. In fact I had a good weekend, a good week, and overall a good month. Things are good, and I'm stable and I'm happy. I have made significant changes in my life with nutrition and exercise, and I have been following through with counselling and care and working towards a better mental well-being. Over all, I'm different. I'm...

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The Truth

The truth is: I'm just a girl. The truth is: I struggle with Mental Illness. The truth is: I'm fighting back. The truth is: I'm not alone. It's absolutely amazing what the mind can convince you of. Once I let my mind convince me that I wasn't worth it, that I was just a nobody who was undeserving of love and compassion and understanding. I was in the darkness and couldn't see the light... not only that, but I didn't even believe there was a light.  Some of the things that I am learning...

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World Suicide Prevention Day 2015

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. I've been thinking about what I would write all week and about the words that I could use to inspire someone to reach out and to save a life. But I don't have anything like that, I don't know if I am in a position where I can give that sort of advice. What I can do though, is be open and transparent. I can tell you that I have been on the verge of suicide and I have been to the place that is so dark, it feels like there is no way out, except to end it all....

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